tired-uninspired

2011-04-11T18:23:00.001+08:00

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

2011-04-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

april pls pass by quickly.
i m super tired
shagged ttm!

2011-04-02T20:09:00.002+08:00

i dont really like the wallet :/
i feel so evil, so unappreciative.
sighs =.= my jc ppl should know
how am i when i m unappreciative.
lol
but i will still use the wallet.
well,
braun buffel wallet.
my mum damn cute
i said
mama i dont have so many cards to put in the slots
mum: want me lend u my cards to put?
aiya, i know! put the fo gui shi wu tiao la.
me: speechless.
HAHAHHAS omg freaking cute

2011-04-01T18:59:00.000+08:00

i should forget about everything that happened this year
yeah, peace! too tired to hold any conflicts
or grudge.
as long as there's no more shit
i'm okay with it liao!
i think..
perhaps.
lol hahahahas

2011-03-29T18:56:00.000+08:00

it's easier to be a sinner than a saint.
therefore i shall be a sinner. lol
i cant forgive and forget that easily la.
seriously.
sighs
kay peaceful j2 life! bye! (:

2011-03-28T18:59:00.000+08:00

浮誇

2011-03-27T03:22:00.002+08:00

ZodiacFacts ZodiacFact

#ZodiacFacts #Capricorns, can be pessimists (you call it "reality"), and your view on relationships sours easily after a bad breakup.

ZodiacFacts ZodiacFact

#ZodiacFacts As a #Capricorn,being a sign that values history, you get stuck in the "nostalgia trap," pining for a long-gone ex.

ZodiacFacts ZodiacFact

As a #Capricorn, after a break up Push yourself to take risks rather than dwelling in sentimentality or going for the familiar.

2011-03-24T16:47:00.001+08:00

sighs
affected by what i just knew.
i'm dumb =.=

2011-03-23T02:01:00.001+08:00

hahahas
I REALISE
I DONT NEED FEEL SORRY
for him at all!
cos he's a meanie too!
KAY tear away my diary pages!
:D

2011-03-23T01:54:00.002+08:00

i'm really scared of being abandon behind
alone, in the dark..
p6 was outcasted because
one grp of my friend quarrel with another
they thought i was siding my another friend
sec2 ml,xq,hs
that idiot plus another guy friend.
sec 4 mabel, ft ppl
jc1, gna
jc2 the one i thought i was closest with
is nothing but a stupid spoilt brat and bitch
the one who backstabbed me the most.

2011-03-23T01:42:00.001+08:00

he's an ass

there's nothing i should feel about.
yeah....
chi lit paper sucks ttm.
wrote only 6 pages.
others wrote 9,10
chem sucks.
argh fml

2011-03-22T21:06:00.002+08:00

2011-03-18T22:56:00.000+08:00

i dont want a scar!!!!!

2011-03-18T17:51:00.001+08:00

got myself a fucking 4cm scar. =.=
feel like a moron,
now not only i have the scar.
my hand hurts when i m writing.
how am i going write for the GP essay???!
=.=
i m an idiot.
zzzz

Ayumi Hamasaki - Because of You

2011-03-15T22:42:00.003+08:00

CLASSIC (:

2011-03-13T18:25:00.001+08:00

i'm hungry and angry! =.=

2011-03-13T17:08:00.001+08:00

keep dreaming weird dreams
i wonder why :/
and it's all the things that i wanted in the past
or maybe subconsciously i still long for it?

2011-03-11T23:43:00.001+08:00

vampire diaries has super awesome songs

2011-03-11T23:19:00.002+08:00

sheesh, kay
errr summary of what happen these few days
sunday
EPIC FAILURE
it's like super boring
idk la
maybe just not interested talking to them anymore
maybe i'm just trying to get the wall up again
but heck, they are no longer my priority
that fucker call me fat and made fun of me blah
i was crossing my leg and he kick it
on purpose
idk, i feel like i'm being more serious now
at least to them
whatever joke he make
i cant be bothered
well maybe trying to act not bothered
i also dunno
but i was really annoyed.
sighs

oh ya
and they were so AA
wtf
dots i was so speechless
idk why sia
nowadays the guys =.=
one game only
walk one round think of actions to do
then all do those AA moves

then fb, weird guys
kay there's even one xiao didi. =.=
then those ppl randomly texting ppl to look for gf
when they are like 15-17?
=.=
what happens to sg guys
too desperate or what

2011-03-09T19:39:00.002+08:00

a pic speaks a thousand words.

2011-03-09T19:21:00.004+08:00

he's such a fucker,
seriously
bought a cake for him
want pass him
cos last min going out with susanti
scare cake spoil
he ask me where i m,
i ask him where he is
so i can pass him
he dont want
ask either i eat it on my own,
or send to hougang to give his parents
WTF la.
was really angry,
the next day still pretend nothing happen
fucker,
he totally dun think he's wrong
but well,
on the bright side i bought for zj and yj too

that durian cake ended up giving to warren
hahahas cos nothing do
then went city hall find warren poh!!
with susanti (:
walk to clarke quay
cos i insist of looking at the night lights
but also nothing much one
then took mrt to city hall
hahahas LOL
then took cab with warren and susanti back home

actually
for me what i need is just friends who are nice
straight forward,
i dont need surprises for birthday,
i dont need lots of humor, jokes
i just want them to be real

i dont understand why is it that they
can expect something from me
and i cant ask back anything from them
it's always this way
seriously, i dont even feel like talking to
those ppl anymore.
just wanna sit alone,
chill, relax. do everything in my own pace
i want to be myself.
i wanna talk and laugh and joke like how i did with 4d1 & 4c ppl
i wanna act like an idiot
i wanna act stupid
like how i am when i am with them
but those ppl,
it's not that they are perfect either
who are they to criticize me.
like seriously,
u are so fuck up urself too.
act cool de act cool
and what's with the act of putting baby powder on her face
what the shit la.
play game, win they say i scary
wtf u took all my property cards u say i scary
basically all 3 person aim for me
only me.
not saying those two,
but that precise one
still call me pamz somemore
fuck lurhh
knn is u guys ownself want leave earlier
push the blame to me
and pls lor, the richer one is the more stingy they will be
at 1st i thought, maybe just maybe
they are just following the puppeteer
u know, manipulated.
but well, after awhile i realised
it's their nature,
they can choose what to do what.
and what's with the $24 photo
what kind of loser will upload something
then like it.
fucking lame
HAHAHAHAS NOOB SHIT!
damn loser.

and, i believe one day
those who are super free will go try dig this blog link out
then start gossiping.
ask me out to talk things out
dont even fucking listen to me
still ask me explain for what
u are just putting up a show
for awhile
i really really wanted to talk things out
but seriously,
after that talk
i realise, there's nothing else to talk
nothing else to explain
u dun even fucking listen
u just think u will always be right.

2011-03-03T22:27:00.000+08:00

hoping from deep down my heart, and of cos praying
she will fucking fail her A's mother tongue.

2011-02-27T11:20:00.003+08:00

lol looking at how free the retainees are,
got kinda annoyed =.=
still can camwhore and upload to fb.

cant even tweet this to twitter
later those over paranoid freaks will say
i'm talking about her
ppl are mean to them
lamers.

):):):

2011-02-21T22:27:00.000+08:00

　作曲：吴克群作词：吴克群
　（歌词转自音魁网 www.inkui.com）
　我知道我有罪
歌讲的罪
词我太自以为
转我知道我有错
自讲的错
音贪新又厌旧
魁说话大声是我就是我
网错却不好说拈花惹草是我又是我
ｉ罪让你承受
ｎ就罚我唱情歌
ｋ说话别大声
ｕ我错我承认
ｉ就罚我唱情歌
· 越唱越大声
ｃ我爱我承认
ｏ唱到我声嘶力竭
ｍ那又如何
　你值得更好的男人
　（歌词转自音魁网 www.inkui.com）
　我知道我有罪
　讲的罪
　只出一张嘴
　我知道我有错
　讲的错
　坏朋友太多
　让你伤心是我就是我错
　却不好说痞子无赖是我又是我
　罪让你承受
　（歌词转自音魁网 www.inkui.com）
　让我这罪人
　嚷到心灰意冷
　痛苦已喊不出声
　你背已转身
　我看到你伤痕
　才知道我错我有多残忍

2011-02-19T14:48:00.002+08:00

she's such a fucking whore putting words in my mouth
and how she claims i scam their money.
i wont blame the others cos i think they were just being manipulated, like marionettes.
was fuming mad at 1st cos seeing that retarded 24 dollars.
hahahas they are such hypocrites.
say will donate the money but ended up spending it at pastamania.
well what mel say totally stop my anger
like immediately.
''just let her be. she'll screw up her lfie before she knows it. thats what she does best anyways. so let her put her skills to good use.:D''
''omg! u totally make my anger all went away.
''haha yeah! So you do what you do at best and she does the only thing she can do best at. :D the world will be peaceful. haha.''

2011-01-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

如果真让我说你们摩羯座的弱点
我只能说
‘你们说的不够漂亮..但是你们做的很漂亮’
很真诚
你们是捆绑似的人生
即使再痛苦
你们也要令周围的人幸福
也许你们不怕痛苦或者时间的风化
但是你们却害怕你们所爱的人根本不了解你们心

初见魔羯会被他阴沉的表现所慑
他是严谨的常给人不可冒犯的感觉
像黑咖啡初碰味蕾时的苦涩
但认识久了你会了解他其实是很散漫叛逆
他不是独行侠
因为孤独时他一定会躲在棉被里哭
他需要大量的关心
就像糖和奶精去滋润他的生活
他是咖啡却没办法一个人喝
太过自卑和自大的他
时常会莫名厌恶自己
他看来冷酷但渗入感情
他绝对会为你放下身段
要等待他回甘
请先得忍受他刚入口时的苦涩
lol this is so true!!

对于一切都从实际出发的摩羯来说
爱情是过度到家庭的一个过程
当然..
他们也会好好的对待、好好的享受在其中
只是名字取的是实在
不需要花哨
也没必要伪装出一副深情的姿态
而且这也是放在心里的
生活才是重点
从来就不鄙视物欲
没有物质基础
爱情也只是空谈
是不会持续太久的
实在二字听上去确实不够迷人
但是它有延续幸福的魔力

12星座的心是用甚麼做的

摩羯座：玉

摩羯座的心就是一块和赤壁
但他们却用平庸来掩饰
因为他们要坚守住心中对爱情的那份美好憧憬
无缘的人只看到他们外面的粗糙
毫不珍惜只当成废品随意丢弃
只有等到一个有足够耐心和勇气的人
怀着坚定的诚意
剖开摩羯的内心
才有机会发现居然是如此惊眩
至此不离不弃

摩羯天生善良感情脆弱
通常表面酷酷与事隔离的样子
其实只是不希望让别人看到脆弱一面
坚强、理智、承受
是摩羯的代名词

2010-08-27T17:11:00.000+08:00

ARGH frustration!!!

2010-08-21T22:01:00.013+08:00

2010-08-19T09:55:00.001+08:00

Stop challenging my patience and temper.
Apparently I have none for those whom don't respect the others.
Basic manners duh!!!

2010-08-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

[Chorus - Rihanna]
Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

[Eminem - Verse 1]
I can't tell you what it really is, I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off her love, drunk from my hate, it's like I'm huffin' paint
And I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me, she f**kin' hates me
And I love it, "wait, where you goin'?"
"I'm leavin' you," "no you ain't come back"
We're runnin' right back, here we go again
So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great
I'm superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 2]
You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you with em you meet and neither one of you even know what hit em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get em
Now you're getting f**kin' sick of lookin' at em
You swore you'd never hit em, never do nothin' to hurt em
Now you're in each other's face spewin' venom in your words when you spit em
You push pull each other's hair
Scratch claw hit em throw em down pin em
So lost in the moments when you're in em
It's the rage that's the culprit, controls you both
So they say it's best to go your seperate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playin' over
But you promised her next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no nintendo game, but you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

[Chorus]

[Eminem - Verse 3]
Now I know we said things, did things, that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is, you're the same as me
When it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby please come back, it wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up the bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk?
Told you this is my fault, look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed I'll aim my fist at the drywall
Next time there won't be no next timw
I apologize even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar if she ever tries to f**kin' leave again
I'ma tie her to the bed and set this house on fire

[Chorus]
[End]

2010-08-16T20:31:00.001+08:00

somehow, when u started to dislike someone

it will only become worst and worst as day pass by.

and i m going say it LOUD

fuck you stupid MILKS and APPLES

FUCK U!

CB!

show some basic respect to ppl if u wan ppl to respect u!

humji loser.

2010-08-15T22:27:00.001+08:00

haiiiiss ):

hate being ignored and shunned!

fuck! i should get over it.

seriously! damn!

2010-08-10T22:26:00.000+08:00

the song is stuck in my head now!

keep repeating again and again..

2010-08-09T21:52:00.001+08:00

at least tell me why..

2010-08-08T22:02:00.002+08:00

to have the feel of ppl shunning me,

it makes me feel as though there's something wrong with me.

): ):

haiiissssssss

guess, perhaps i still need my friend to chat with me like usual

everything is piling up..

still need to chat with friend,

to distress.

to make matter worst,

i cant get my galaxy S ):

2010-08-08T12:36:00.002+08:00

i have a feeling my friend is shunning me.

lol, well...

institution and six sense i think.

actually its rather obvious.

i think i need to talk it out.

perhaps...

i cant stand it when ppl shun me!

is irritating and annoying! ):

though sometimes, its good to keep distance with some of em

but i cant stand this if i need to see the ppl

for my entire lifetime!

sheesh..

kay, time to talk things straight out..

hmmm

anyways, i have sunburnt now,

especially after the steambath. lol

hahas but at least i enjoyed my trip yest

hahahas, trip to sentosa then out with sis (:

2010-07-29T21:44:00.001+08:00

I'm just like the bass, can never be played on its own. unlike the keyboard/guitar. They can only be the sound that is played behind the music. In ppl eyes those that are getting all their attention and interest was never the bass. Although important but no one will ever realize it's importance.

2010-07-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

be cautious, i bite! (:

hmmm lol haiiiiiis

sian

2010-07-23T19:17:00.005+08:00

this time, i will be the one doing it 1st.

i will be the one doing things that ppl wont like.

things that i hated ppl to do to me.

but,

i know what i want, and i know what i need.

i know my priorities and i know what's better for me.

so, bye!!! (:

2010-07-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

lol cool phrase

我的内脏也会跟着我的眼泪抽搐，我在也不知道这个世界还有什么值得我去留恋，我忘了怎么哭，只是在不停的笑，不停的笑，不知在笑什么，为什么而笑

2010-07-18T20:21:00.000+08:00

its good to have a friend who lives near u

doesnt it? (:

2010-07-12T22:23:00.001+08:00

not in a good mood!!

2010-07-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

kay count down 10mins to susanti ho's birthday

hehehe

happy birthday susanti ho!! >.<

2010-07-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

kay, happy birthday WARREN POH!!!

2010-07-08T18:55:00.001+08:00

i will stay up till midnight today!!

i must!!

and for tmr too. sheesh so tired

cant believe i forget about it.

like totally forget about it! ):

shall start memorising liao.

all those after FEB! sheesh!

2010-07-02T17:43:00.001+08:00

just what the hell am i waiting for??

2010-06-19T23:31:00.001+08:00

went to school early in the morning,

but i didnt know that library not open during weekends

so ended up sitting outside library for an hour

den went elouis house study

2010-06-18T23:34:00.001+08:00

i need a shoulder to cry on!

2010-06-18T23:25:00.001+08:00

nothing can express my hatred for it.

ever since young.

the ans has been clear

and i freaking hate it.

whatever shit that they do, they contradict it

ever since young, wad u are showing me

is they are more important than me.

i got it now, i do.

well not as though it matters that much.

F M L

2010-06-04T21:03:00.006+08:00

to those adults

who assume that just because those ppl are special

cos they are ____ kids

and they are up to the standard cos of that

well, u are so wrong.

i m going prove u wrong

and make u regret ur decision

for which, status is not important at all,

and even though u are an adult,

u are so shallow.

u only look at things on the surface, the cover.

trying to suck up to those ppl.

shame on u!

no matter what things i do in the future

u are responsible for it! ;)

2010-06-03T19:29:00.002+08:00

my dear MUM suddenly ask me stay at home

cos the kids coming my house at 6

=.=

damn, zzz then AIYA sian

if they stay longer than good la!

but they only stay for 1 hour!

den make me cancel all my plans today

dam!

zzz

2010-05-30T11:20:00.005+08:00

had a fantastic, marvelous, great day yesterday!!

hahas morning, challenger called and ask me go down to the HQ

to register a account for work.

then my mum brought me to expo

intending to buy me a electronic dictionary

well, we ended up in the food fair till 5.5opm

then i rushed to the MRT to take train to bugis. (:

but the entire expo was so packed!!

i need to squeeze through the crowds of ppl!!

spent 10mins doing that =.=

so yeahh, almost late

smsed warren he was 2 stops earlier than mine

hahahas so wasnt very late

only late by 3mins or so

at 1st we intended to go to eat the vegetarian food

but idk hw to walk to there

been there a few times

but well, somehw just cant rmb hw to walk there!

so ended up in subway watching warren eating his food

den catch up with one another etc etc

went to clark quay (idk hw spell)

went to clark quay,

then walked to suntec city starbucks there to drink coffee!

my dinner was that cup of coffee.

didnt upload all the photos

its all in the facebook (:

2010-05-29T12:27:00.001+08:00

whats more exciting than working tgt with ur FRIENDS!!

hahahahahaahhahahas!!!

yeahhh!!! (:

2010-05-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

life in short..

lazy type out liao.

2010-05-06T21:06:00.002+08:00

All I Need

I'm dying to catch my breath
Oh why don't i ever learn
I've lost all my trust though i've surely tried to
Turn it around

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
When you hold me in your embrace

Don't tear me down
For all i need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don't tear me down
You've opened the door now
Don't let it close

I'm here on the edge again
I wish I could let it go
I know that I'm only one step away
From turning around

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
When you hold me in your embrace

Don't tear me down
For all i need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don't tear it down
What's left of me
Make my heart a better place

I've tried many times but nothing was real
Make it fade away
Don't tear me down
I want to believe that this is for real
Save me from my fear
Don't tear me down

Don't tear me down
For all i need
Make my heart a better place

Don't tear me down
For all i need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something i can believe
Don't tear it down
What's left of me
Make my heart a better place
Make my heart a better place

2010-05-03T14:12:00.000+08:00

i wonder....

ever since when eating garlic makes me feel sick

=.=

2010-05-02T00:43:00.003+08:00

i really really really miss her as a friend....

but i too scare to try again..

why did they say not to know for my own good?

i wanna know, but i m scare to know..

i dun wanna get a cold shoulder again.

but she was there when those ppl are not.

2010-05-01T00:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder,

who do ppl change?

and i really hated those who have changed

i hate it when ppl change,

and forget totally about me..

pri sch,

sec2,

sec school..

how many times have it been this way

i still remember the way i have been..

i wont trust anyone anymore

i wont have any friend anymore

i cant trust anyone,

i will only trust myself

but there will always be this someone/ ppl who open my heart again

but always when i opened my heart

and accept these friends

eventually they will be the one who shut it up again

its always this way

always!!

pri sch -- carol

sec2 --- meilan.xq,hs

sec4 -- ft ppl..

jc1 -- sec sch ppl

why is that everyone can move forward and i m the only one left behind?

idk it just make me very sad, when i started to think about

all the happy moments we had.

and the sadness last for years..

when something trigger off the memories,

its just so painful,

why is it that we can be once so close,

den after that, acting like strangers..

why is it that always when i mustered up all courage

to talk to u ppl, they will push me away

cold replies and etc

i really treasure all of them alot,

i love all of them as my friends.

its like they are the one standing beside me

when all those freaks dont..

why is it that a person can change so much

and honestly, i didnt expect myself to still be contact with susanti..

i thought i will lose contact with her 1st

but ironically, it was her that i keep contact with..

sometimes i wonder,

is it my fault??

after that i realise,

no matter wad,

one day we will all ended up alone

i hate it when i open my heart to another,

treasuring them as friends

but they ended up leaving u alone..

giving u cold shoulder.

i hate it when i say i wont open up anymore

but i still do

and ended up hurting myself.

i think that i m such a weakling.

such a loser.

for which, i m the only one who truly cares.....

2010-04-26T22:55:00.003+08:00

felt so much better after seeing susanti today.

feel that some of my friends distant away form me

and there's one who even admit it.

cos he wanna be more mature.

is happy for him but do ppl have to build up walls just to be mature??

i am really contented and happy enough

to be able to meet up with susanti today,

si hui yesterday at bugis

and warren this upcoming sunday.

as for the saturday,

which due to the number of the FT ppl who CMI,

so forget it liao.

i will go meet yujing alone liao dots!

everyone at 1st say can, last min all pangseh!

''yes i will make an effort...''

i wonder wads with the i will make an effort.

at 1st the 1st person say

i m okay,

2nd bit pekchek

3rd

4th

sua liao la..

anything liao.

2010-04-25T22:09:00.001+08:00

i miss u guys

a lot a lot!

susanti, warren, ang..

sihui, peishi, siyuh..

2010-04-24T21:08:00.001+08:00

its amazing hw some ppl

can pissed another off

den talk back with them as though nothing happen

2010-04-20T19:45:00.001+08:00

finally crying everything out now..

its better than cant cry anything out..

u lied, u say by doing things that i like.

i will feel better

i rewatch all the show i love the most.

but why my mood still sucks to the max!

why do i still feel so sad!!

i m such a failure!

i cant even do a thing right!

i cant get rid of wad i wanna get rid of the most.

why cant i be more firm?

why cant i be more determine?

why am i so USELESS??

2010-04-20T19:31:00.002+08:00

couldnt sleep at all yesterday

ended up tossing around on my bed

scared and frightened of dunno wad thing

i think it was cos of that...

smsed couple of ppl

but idk why all say they are gonna sleep early

for school, weird thing is

saw their status update till 1am

yeah weird huh...

idk lehhh

just feel back the kinda feeling that i had when i was in sec 2

the feeling that i hated the most,

afraid to be left behind or something

i also dunno wad it was..

i only rmb i really hated that feeling

but idk what it was.

and sucks la..

its like i smsed a lot of the guys

that always ka chiao me at night

it seems that all of them are gonna sleep

or sleeping

weird sia..

like when i needed ppl the most all of them are busy or smthng

when i dun, all of them seems so free

hope i can sleep tightly tonight..

i really hate that feeling..

pls go away!!

2010-04-19T12:05:00.002+08:00

shud i???

go out on friday to watch movie??

haiiisss

siann sia..

but i dun like making use of others..

2010-04-18T17:35:00.003+08:00

hmm lets talk bout yesterday outing!!

hehehe it was really fun la!

been such a long time since we teens have an outing tgt!

FREAKING fun! hahas

felt like everyone back to how we were few years back

its really nice!!

okayy now the details..

2.40pm, just got out of home.

is can reach earlier de

but bcos of something i was late so yeahh

hahas but at least i m not the latest! hehehe

reach there about 4.20pm

then reach there everyone sitting down at J.CO,

i reach there, everyone is there le

except jin xian

which i m quite glad!

i rush cos i dun wanna be the last person to reach there!!~ >.<

waited for around 10mins

meanwhile chatting with the previous batch of 'teens'

yann ping, ximei, suqi, weiquan, suqi husband.

then after that jin xian so yeahh

joined de ppl suaning him being late

hahas looks like everyone had forgotten i was late too!

i m glad i reached earlier!

hahas!!

den went fortune centre to eat

the green curry very nice!!

but didnt eat much cos it was hot.

then started talking with other ppl

someone proposed the idea of gonig pula ubin to cycle

but they sort of forgotten that idk how to cycle!!

i look at suqi she show me that

* i know u dunno how to cycle nvm can de*

i was like orhhh =.=

the 1st thing that came to my mind was

DOUBLE BIKE!! -----> WARREN POH!! hahas!

then they said nvm laa can share bike with others

i was like orhhhhh

then i was thinking, can i bring warren along?

but like suan le la

very weird sia, he dunno anyone so yeahh

then idk who brought up the topic, ask me share with jinxian

=.= then sing some song

totally no link

anyways, man i miss the 'cycling' session with bernice and warren

but i lazy ask them out again LOL

hahahahas >.<

yeah i was thinking of maybe i can blade

but there's a lot of slope =.=

soo see how la..

then after that went to pick up zijing

went back half of the ppl gone sian

left me, 3bros, jw, zj, yp, xh

walk towards the pool area

yp xh went to meet wq den went off too

k the pool session sucks ttm

its cos my skills sucks!

=.= i feel a killing stare and a totally give up sigh from behind

LOL hahas

so just anyhw play la! have fun can le!

hahahas!! (:

went arcade to rot,

play stupid games but laughed like siao

wanna play the bball but zj say she wanna play so let her play with jw

jt playing with jy,

den walk towards jx, wanna take the ball throw

he dun wanna move

he wanna solo! =.=

so i ended up collecting tickets ):

den after that play with tai

lol then zj wanna play so let her play again

LOL at least she finally enjoying herself!

at 1st she refused to get in one!! hahas

then me and yong play dunno wad stupid water spray game

win only 5 tickets

got suan say we waste money

LOL hahas!!

oh yahh!

yong was mumbling all the way

nagging

im hungry,

i m hungry,

I M HUNGRY!!! (wonder how many times he said that)

hahahas!

hence after arcade we went to have supper! hahahas its really nice! (:

i left abruptly i think, didnt even have a chance to say goodbye to the 3bros

idk why suddenly my head hurts like hell

so went to meet susanti ho to take the bus back

almost died dunno why the head will hurt all of sudden

then felt real dizzy...

2010-04-18T15:25:00.000+08:00

feeling down... ):

2010-04-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

i must learn how to control my temper!

2010-04-12T21:38:00.002+08:00

ppl i wanna sms with

dont really reply seriously

those i dun wanna sms

keep sms-ing =.=

2010-04-12T16:36:00.004+08:00

its just because i didnt try hard enough!

i always said i did

but a matter of fact i dont!

i never did!

thats why i m always stuck in the cycle

I S W E A R to myself,

i will try my utmost

to do what i have failed to accomplish in the past few years!

i believe i can do it! LOL hahas

and i shant entertain those who werent

nice to me, backstab me or whatever

to me, they will be like the transparent,

non existent..

like what my friend had said,

even if some of the ppl we grew up tgt or what

things change,

ppl change,

you wont know what will happen in these few years

that i didnt contact them..

we cant judge a book by its cover!

i must learn how to speak up!!

2010-04-09T23:07:00.002+08:00

tiring week

haiis idk lehh

i just think that i have become super quiet nw adays

perhaps due to my friends no longer in the same JC as i m?

today ran 1x400

damn dui lian

i ran b4 the race start

zzz

anyways, running 1x400 more tiring than 2.4 sia

i almost faint.

see white specks instead of black specks

think the sky too bright le bahh

sarah worst

she's having cramp

ehh lazy post liao le lahh

anyways, i just like sort of realize

i think i m drifting apart with some of the sec sch mates

haiiiiss

i think.... ):

2010-04-07T18:54:00.003+08:00

In your life, you'll take note of many people. One whom you shared something special, one who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to. The one you're with currently... And the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person you were with which everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose. Ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. An equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are not good together; it's just that it's not right yet, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you will be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it will work because you're ready. It will work if it's the right time and you will make it work. So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. There's no telling when this day will come.

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing. But if neither of that is the case, then it's different.

What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple... find him or her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one? Ask him or her out and say, "Hey you, you're the one that almost got away."

2010-04-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

songs that i listened in sec3 intro by friends (:

2010-04-05T22:06:00.001+08:00

fate brought me back to how it was 3 years ago??

such a coincidence

2010-04-03T20:24:00.001+08:00

sometimes its just impossible to replace one with another

2010-04-03T20:17:00.000+08:00

i miss jing!

i wanna chat with her..

LOL

haiiiisss

siann!! ):

2010-04-02T22:22:00.003+08:00

haiis what an unlucky week

bag spoiled, slippers spoiled,

wallet lost,

sorethroat...

haiiss ):

but today at sentosa was fun

went early to tan with bernice

waited from 11am plus all the way to 12.51pm

in the end cant tahan.

the sun too strong!

i only wanted to have even tan for leg and shoulder.

ended up being super tan!!

LOL and red.

went there realise forget bring all the clothes to change!

sucks man! wads wrong with this week!

i expect next week to be damn heng and lucky!

since i m suay enough this week!

then sms A to come

like cos i wanna the towel

and he know la but still came with it

so touched!! hahas

YOU ARE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS

you rocks!! HAHAS!!

LOL but none of the 4d1 ppl seems to get what i mean by

he is really my childhood friend la =.=

he was like ''ehh stay away from me lurhh!''

=.= i feel bad asking u come all the way down sia!

LOL, okay la i really feel guilty to a large extend!

hahahahahahahaha

LOL sian );

wallet HAIIIS

2010-04-01T21:34:00.002+08:00

bought a bikini and a tube :D

but i think my mama gonna kill me if she sees.

LOL dun even dare to imagine it

sheesh..

but i m happy enough!

got clothes to wear to sun tan!

hahas :D

lalalalalalalalalala~~ ♥♥♥

going straight down to ft after tmr class outing

hopefully i m not worned out to go

i wanna go but i think i will be super tired

and wearing tube and shorts going to

their house

sure ganna diao by the aunties again

''AIYO that xinli dress so translucent, so short etc''

zzz

duh! i can afford it !

can u???

:D hahas!

LOL

hahas sun tan sun tan~~

excited excited~~

2010-03-31T22:22:00.002+08:00

omg!!

face damn red sia! LOL hahas

LOL donkey years ago the thing liao

still will have reaction

hahas! omg!! i wanna tell someone!!

elouis or jing?

LOL

sheesh!!

2010-03-28T19:05:00.001+08:00

its been 4 years but i still love this song!!

idk why LOL.

but to a lot ppl they dont like it.

so yahhh

ermm pls lower ur com's volume.

apparently, si hui cant stand this song.LOL!

2010-03-26T17:17:00.001+08:00

SUSANTI HO ROCKS!!!~~

hahahas yeahhh!!

working tmr!!

2010-03-26T16:41:00.001+08:00

trying my best to keep myself as busy as possible..

2010-03-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

'' i want to be more determined!

to finish all the things that i wanted to,

to do all the things that i planned ahead for em

but always stop halfway cos i couldnt do it! ): ''

i dun think u guys will like it if u know what it mean

dun anyhow like that status

LOL

2010-03-24T22:12:00.002+08:00

haiis dunno lurrhh

dun have the determination to do what i had been thinking

its always this way!

i dun understand why!

i always can get back at them one!

but always hold back at the crucial moment!

i hate it!!

2010-03-24T19:07:00.001+08:00

actually, u dont know me at all!!

HAHAHAHAHAS!!

gosh ehh when did my laughter turn so sinister >.<

2010-03-23T17:32:00.006+08:00

anyways finished running 3 rounds within 6-7mins

i am so happy!

i chiong all the way didnt stop at all.

just wanna distract with something for the short moment

and it rocks totally!

i m so gonna love PE from nw on!! :D

i m stronger than u think i m!!

so dont worry about it!! :)

wanted to post it on ur wall

but realise that it would be weird

dun wanna make anyone feel bad or wad.

i m really okay!!

i m smiling from deep down my heart so fret not k?

i am really okay, so just for time being stop bringing it up bahh

i know you are just worried.

but i m okay!! :D

cos i always love myself the most!!! hehes

2010-03-23T06:51:00.001+08:00

annoyed!!!

2010-03-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

somehw sneezing and crying at the same times feels weird!!

LOL! i m so ramdom.

my eyes damn! drrryyyyy

2010-03-22T18:28:00.000+08:00

at least i know i have tried :')

2010-03-22T17:19:00.001+08:00

i want to know at least i tried!

i dun wanna look back and said the same thing to myself again

why didn't i do it that time!

2010-03-20T23:03:00.001+08:00

just back from a nice chat with jing

okay we chat bout a lot stuffs

lol, practically anything under the sun

was about to change her pt of view of certain stuffs

but ended up having the same thoughts as her

cos i wanted it too1

but i cant haiis ):

den that stupid jing go tempt me

zzzz

thanks ar if anything weird happen tmr

it would be ur fault jing! LOL! hahas

2010-03-20T00:11:00.004+08:00

idk why i suddenly lost all my courage

all my determination

i dun wan try anymore..

wad's mine will be mine

wad's nt mine will never be mine

if that was wad it was in the past

why shud i try again

i m scare..

i dun wanna feel the feeling of losing something again

i dun wanna be rejected again

i dun wanna to be pushed away again!

i;m really afraid..

susanti gonna kill if she see this..

but i doubt she will see this

lol

2010-03-19T23:33:00.002+08:00

imba sia just nw

zzz anyways

my fren was teaching me pool just nw

i think he teach till damn pekchek

lol..

say i dun understand human language

lol. suddenly feel so stupid

lol i really slow learner sia!

zzzz

around 7pm reach jx's house cos gt religion

as usual my mum called to his home and ask

if i reach there yet =.=

after start i was waiting for it to end can!

zzz

TSUNAMI!! grrrr!!

1st tym stomach cramp lurhh!

gao weh sia!!

then 10pm just find some stupid excuse rush home,

say meet fren

cos i inform jx say i going back 1st

den he say oh

den i inform his dad

den he was like why leave so early..

zzzz i feel like saying

LAI ANG SIA!! =.= but cant its ft

i wonder why i can say it so casually in sec sch

nw cant speak it liao

paiseh sia!

2010-03-19T01:01:00.000+08:00

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You

Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed

You said move on

Where do I go

I guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy

With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in

I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

stay....

2010-03-19T00:58:00.001+08:00

i dun wan the holidays to end! ):

2010-03-18T23:32:00.005+08:00

zzzzzzzzzz

魔羯座

　　年輕的魔羯都是很單純的，我想他們也不會知道自己將從天使變成惡魔，魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也許會因為一些很小的事情難過很長時間，所以他們通常在表面表現的酷酷的與事隔離的樣子，其實他們只是不希望讓別人看到他脆弱的一面，堅強，理智，承受是魔羯的代名詞，他們並不是很隨便的表達自己所想，他們希望瞭解身邊所有人的性格，並不是因為好奇，好像只是因為一種安全感，為了保護自己魔羯生出了一種特殊能力。

　　　　魔羯相對任何星座來比能在最段時間看出一個人的性格無論他們在如何隱藏，這點很像天蠍但是他們卻看不出對方的心，他們很容易就會瞭解到他們身邊每一個人的優缺點，但是他們通常不會說出來，也不會太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容對方請記得，如果有一隻魔羯指出你的缺點那一定是友善的，雖然他們會用一種諷刺的口氣來指出．

　　　　所有魔羯都擁有２個性格，只是大部分魔羯都不願意去接受，因為他們希望自己永遠的傻傻的活下去，魔羯的壞可以媲美過所有星座，也許他們不相信，但是隨著時間的積累魔羯的人在慢慢變壞，其實這也是一種自我保護，他們需要知道瞭解自己最後的一張王牌，做不做就看對方是否達到讓魔羯抱負的地步了，這並不是在表揚，似乎用陰險可以形容，當魔羯討厭一個人的時候那就是一種絕對，魔羯不會隨便討厭一個人，但是如果哪個人做的太過分，這個人會從魔羯心底徹底抹殺，如果這個人激怒了魔羯，呵呵那麼這個人就只能等著災難的降臨。

　　　　魔羯是個比較城府的人，他們不會表面去得罪了，但是他們會計劃著讓這個人知道他所做的事情將會給自己帶來多大的回報，魔羯的報復手段極其殘忍，他會加倍的還給你，（如果你有一天遭受到摸名的災難那麼你去想想你在什麼時候得罪了魔羯）魔羯並不會隨便的去加害一個人，因為魔羯也討厭自己的壞，他們是天才的殺手，一切的一切從很早以前就做好計劃，而且這些計劃在沒有事件出現前他們就在考慮如何完美並無破綻的進行報復計劃，也許這些和他的悲觀有些聯繫，魔羯的人很瞭解世界，但他們固執的相信美好儘管自己知道那是不可能的，大部分魔羯都討厭壞壞的自己，當然想拋棄自己是不可能的。

　　　　　　朋友（最喜歡裝傻的星座）　　魔羯的人都很沒有安全感，他們喜歡在任何人面前裝傻，這可不是一般的裝傻能力，魔羯人聰明就在於這點，他們認為只有傻子在會不牽扯到任何傷害，與其做一個聰明的人不如當一個傻子平凡而又隨意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永遠不會讓對方知道自己會有智慧，而無論安全與不安全魔羯對朋友都很真，他們很珍惜些朋友。

　　他們最希望獲得朋友的信任，如果從一個朋友那裡得不到信任，他不會再與這個朋友交往下去．和魔羯接觸過的人都會認為他們脾氣很好，好的似乎發傻，其實他們並不是脾氣好，只是他們很會裝，因為他們瞭解身邊的朋友的所有性格，所以他們在包容對方，就算你做了什麼過分的事，他們也早就想考慮好如果對方為什麼會這樣做，最明顯一點，你們可以去看看身邊魔羯的朋友，無論你怎麼做那些魔羯都不會很驚訝的，其實他們已經知道你為什麼會這樣了．魔羯的交友觀也很隨便，他們可能會和貴族很好，也可能會和乞丐聊天，一切的一切只是心靈的交往，很少有魔羯會有勢力眼，除非你這個人品太差了。

　　　　感情（超級白癡）　　　　魔羯的人傻的可以，他們並不瞭解愛情，但是他們只知道愛的感覺，對於他們任何感情的表達都是一種感覺，他們很認真的感受每一個感覺，大部分感覺都可以一個人去感覺，最失敗的愛卻要兩個人，傻傻的魔羯一開始會認為，愛你是我自己的事情和你沒關係，可是到後來越來越感覺不是滋味，於是開始對對方表白，表白成功後卻不知道如何走下一步，也許是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能會拿任何事情開玩笑，但是在愛情方面只要他說出"我愛你"或者話題談到將來結婚，那麼他絕對不是在開玩笑，魔羯很物質，但是這點和金牛處女不一樣，他們的物質表現在愛上，他們認為給所愛的人帶來無限的物質的就是最大的幸福，因為他們很自卑，唯一能用自己努力獲得來的就只有物質了。

　　　　當自己努力的去讓自己所愛的人幸福的時候，自己所愛的人卻因為其他的其他離開了他，而到最後自己卻不明白自己到底做錯了什麼，真是可憐的傢伙們．

　　　　追求：魔羯的追求是認真的，只要對方不讓魔羯認為完全沒有機會，魔羯就會像瘋子一樣的追求著，他們其實對自己非常沒有信心，唯一的動力只是相信自己在愛著，為了對的起自己的感情，為了認真的去愛一回．

　　　　被追求：魔羯對於不喜歡的人不會給予任何機會，魔羯的人很善良，而且他們知道長痛不如短痛的道理，如果魔羯勉強接受了你，那也是出於一種同情心，但是交往沒幾天他們就開始內疚，他們認為憐憫的愛對追求者來說是一種傷害，他們會盡量的躲避並且對追求者很冷淡追求者盡量的讓追求者開始討厭她／他．如果追求者不理解的話，放心最長不超過一年，魔羯會很理智的告訴你別在聯繫了，她／他會消失的無影無縱．

　　　　拒絕：如果魔羯真的愛了就不會去拒絕你，永遠不會．

　　　　被拒絕：魔羯比任何一個星座對感情都很認真，恢復傷痕的時間也很長，他們會選擇消失，這樣對你對他都有好處，因為他怕多看你一眼而又再次無法自拔　他怕再多看你一眼　心如刀割

2010-03-18T21:54:00.000+08:00

BORED!!!~~~

2010-03-17T21:15:00.006+08:00

went out with info comm ppl for excursion to a park

and i seriously H A T E that place

OMG its full of bugs

that look like those bugs in the alien shows can

just that it is of a smaller version

YUCKS

den there's these striking colored caterpillars

in the middle of the road...

its like got 4 antennas can!! eyyyeerrrr ):

but i ask the guys to shift it to one corner

later got ppl step on it,,,

one gigantic SPIDER

magnificent spider webs every where

i seriously hate there!

the next destination was better cos its vivo..

but nothing much lurhh

was already tired when we went to vivo

so become quieter when i reaced there

manesha

some ramdom cute baby! hahas

syafiqah

manesha

tian hua (apparently the only guy from 10s20) LOL

chun jie

eyyyerrrr i cant forget hw the caterpillar

squash, stretch, squash, stretch, squash

EYYEERRR ):

cantt sleep but i m tired!!

2010-03-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

got swayed

and pushed away.....

still

2010-03-16T23:13:00.003+08:00

went out today to find present
technically was mabel's present
but some idiot chiong to find his present 1st
hahas joker sia! hahas.
den after that found the present den buy lor.
ya investment huh..
lol hahas!

den walk around finding elmo
went into more than words den finally found
den after that went to ion
walk around
den went into a earring shop
bought a earring
nice but damn ex
somemore bit formal sia.
dunno when can wear.
sheesh but i still like it a lot lurhh..
just like wasted sia
i wanted to wear it often but its too formal.
haiiss

then after that went to look for my susanti!
HEHS went to eat tgt
chat bit saw nicholas
hahas quite friendly lurhh :)
bernice is gonna be soooo jealous! hahas
saw him b4 u :)
hahas!

anyway thnx for the present!

♥

2010-03-15T19:17:00.004+08:00

gosh FUGLY sighted!! run for your life!!