whats with the ''fuck''
and act as though nothing happen i had warned u
not as though i didnt.
i had mention and said,
dun ever EVER said ''fuck u'' to me
and u said it again PLUS with the ''ya so wad.'' and ''nvm''
it might not matter to u but i AM ANGRY wad shit,
and u act as though nothing happen
and tried to talk to me
i had every single right to be angry
just bcos u think u know me well then u can say that to me!
cos no one ever had the right to say that to me!
NO ONE!
all along do u guys think u understand me well?
have u ever spare a thought for me?
(if u think i m selfish then so be it)
think of the real reason,
not the one u had been assuming all the time.
for which the reason u had been assuming
is not the reason any more
it does not affect me anymore.
it had become a past,
think hard, the real reason...

why i will disappear all of sudden?
why i will get angry?
why i will cry?

the claimed- honesty?
truthfulness?
faith?
trust?
where are they?

and what's wrong of getting my own time to calm down
i had found back the real me,
instead of being a hypocrite doing things i had dislike.
suppressing every single bit of my feelings.
and that one week of peace really let me sort things out
i had knw what position some ppl is,
and who are the real true ppls...
i knw what will be the limit of the ppl will be in my heart.
and i knw who to believe in----myself.

tried being lied by those ppl u had trust the most,
those u had tried ur best to believe in
u asked me to.
and i did, i really did.
it was more than once. 4 times i think.
and what u said, i was bias, i think too much.
yeah perhaps.
but for which,
why is it that it is only u who have tis (+) tot?
but trust?


i had sort it all out..
its not that it had gone to waste..
my friends will always be my friends.
nothing gonna change.
u might say i had changed,
u can say i m selfish but thats gonna be me,
for which, the one who cause all this,
is not me...

i m still who i am,
for those,
who really love and care
about me.
who put trust and faith in me
not those who claim they will but didnt.
not those who say they will tell me everything bout didnt.

and to those who care,
after all these..
that happen this year,
i treasure u more now.